And I'm Distracted

I got up this morning and got a lot done today. I haven't gotten around to planting the rest of the seeds for my garden yet, but that will get done soon. I have dinner in the fridge and the rest will get done later. I'm making BBQ chicken, green beans and mashed potatoes. Oh, and I think rolls sound good too. Don't you agree? I've had my ear buds in all day with my school textbook playing, trying to absorb the information as I go. I even had it playing in the car as I was out running around earlier. Now, I'm sitting here trying to get my homework done and I can't help but think...why? I don't like school. I find it boring and most of all frustrating. I can't get interested in anything I'm supposed to be learning. We have discussion postings due each week, quizzes and two papers all within a 5 week class. Honestly, I read enough to get the work done, and that's it! I can't remember half of what I read, thank God all the quizzes are open book or I'd be a mess! I've tried multiple times in the past to finish college, but I just keep wondering why. I'm not good at it. I don't like studying and even when I work my butt off, turning in each assignment on time, giving it 120%, all I generally manage is a C average. I'm not very good at putting my thoughts and opinions into words and I'm also not very good at taking others' thoughts and opinions and putting them into my own words. I have so many other things I'd love to spend my time doing, even a part time job would be nice, even though I have a million other things going on on any given day. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR! I need to know what to do here! Do I stay in school, or do I call it quits once ans for all? I know I'd like to take classes and become a Sign Language Interpreter, there are classes for that offered at the community college near me. If I could just SELL SOME JEWELRY I might be able to afford to take classes and find a job doing that. People say they love my work, but they never buy it. No, I'm not begging or complaining that people aren't buying my jewelry. I do kind of wonder why though. I know money is tight for people, but we all deserve something nice for ourselves, don't we? That's why it's nice to have some pretty jewelry in your closet to wear with the nice clothes you occasionally get to wear. And the fact that it's handmade by an artist you possibly know personally, that's even better! I love supporting small businesses and I try to as much as I can. I just hope others will do the same for me. Anyway, this has turned into a total ramble session and that's not what I meant to do at all. I just don't know what to do anymore. Decisions, decisions...